Awful Dream April 26, 2011

I had a very traumatic disturbing dream last night! I woke up wanting to cry and I kind of still do. I'm not going to go into too much detail because some of it was too gory so I wont explain those parts. Needless to say this dream was weird and unrealistic yet somehow realistic and very vivid. It may not sound like it to you as I type this down as traumatizing but it was for me. I am seriously freaked out. It started:

I was in this house with my friends and husband and behind the couch in the living room was a hallway. I was walking through the hallway when the whole hallway blew up!!!! And I managed to jump out of the way and for some reason the roof was off the house and I saw a HUGE ship hovering over us! It was so scary! It looked so real. It went away and we kind of stood in the living room in shock.

Then we all packed some stuff up and moved to the woods. The ship could follow us where ever we set up camp and we would have to run. My husband and everyone was telling me that the aliens wanted to murder me.

Then all of a sudden I was in my "dream apartment" ( I say dream aprt. because when I dream of our apartment its a little different than real life) and my stomach was sticking out a little and I found out I was pregnant! I was sooo excited I told everyone. I was so freakin happy! For this part of the dream I mostly went around telling people for a while.

Then my stomach got bigger and bigger real quick and I looked really pregnant. Everyone kept commenting on how big I was and how they too were excited for the baby.

Then, this is were it really got to me, I had to go to the bathroom and when I did I had a miscarriage. I started balling and crying and begging my mother for fertility medication so I can try to have another kid. I was so desperate to have another kid. I was so heartbroken. It was so real. That's when I woke up.

I just had to take a pregnancy test today to make sure but it didn't work so I have to wait to take another one. Maybe I am overreacting but that dream really scared me, not so much the alien part but the miscarriage part. I've always wanted a child. I want to be a mother so bad but I don't think my husband is ready to take on the role of a father...It is one of my WORST fears to have a miscarriage. I'm freaked out. I guess you would have had to been a woman and had to of dreamed it to understand. it's one of the worst dreams I have had in a while...I still feel like crying

September 20, 2011

I was in this hotel that was very nice and had a little shallow inside pond. And there was a pool. I was with a bunch of kids I guess was baby sitting. The pool cost 1 dollar each person. I thought I had the money but it turned out I didn't have any. So the kids left. Then this old kid I went to grade school showed up and paid for me to go swimming. I jumped in and sunk all the way to he bottom. I could breathe under water. I floated at the bottom for a few min. Then the guy from grade school lifted up the water as if it were a big blanket. "there you are" he said..then I woke up.

Can't Escape Evil 1/23/11

I had this dream where my husband and I were in this huge mansion place but it was horrible looking. Things were falling apart and there were boxes everywhere. And we peeked around into the room and we saw this DEMONIC looking woman talking to another man. Then all of a sudden she saw us. Jeff and I took off running as fast as we could. But as I was trying so hard to run away, the demonic chick kept grabbing my feet and pulling me all the way back to the room, but I escaped and kept running and she grabbed me again and dragged me across the floor! I got away for a 3rd time and started screaming for Jeff. But he just kept running and ignored me!!!! I tried so hard to get away and each time I would get so close to getting away and she would grab me and pull me back. The last time she garbed me she put her arm around my throat, then I woke up.

What does it mean? Why can't I remember?

I dream about this place ALOT but not all the time, it's just random nights. I am in this dark creepy  forest covered by plants and cliffs and vines. I see a lot of strange looking creatures, kind of demonic like but I don't fear them. I just get that creepy feeling. There are these 3 floating rocks in it. Near the floating rocks this white mist of  a person. His legs dissolved into nothing. He talks to me all the time. And this dream is VERY vivid. and it's the same dream every time I have it. I always talk to that mist. The strange thing is the dream is so VIVID but I can NEVER remember what he was talking to me about! GRRR. I feel like it's important and I need to know. Once day though I will remember what he said and I will definitely post what he says on here.

Update to the house with stairways dream July,22,2010

Update to the house with stairways dream July,22,2010

Here's an update on the house with stairways I always dream of. These past few nights I have explored the stairway house for the first time. I never really explored it that much in previous dreams, I was just very familiar with it and remember the 1st and 2nd story vividly. But the house keeps growing now. Two nights ago I discovered more rooms that lead to more rooms and more stair ways. I had made it to the fourth floor two nights ago and I remember it so vividly. There were five bedrooms on the 3rd floor and 3 bathrooms and each bathroom had two toilets, baths and sinks in it. The room that was by the stairway leading up to the 3rd floor to the left had two beds in it. One was really comfy and the other was hard and not comfy at all. There was a big window that lead to one of those pourches that stood on stilts and it was very high up (obvoiusly) and there was a pool on it and a hot tub. It is usally sundown when I am in this room. It was kind of messy too. Paper's laying about and dressers with the drawers hanging out.

And there was this one room at the end of this hallway and to the right was another stairway that lead to the 4th floor. Any ways to the left was the last room on the 3rd floor and what I found in it was very interesting. I found a lot of stuff that reminded me of Voodoo and Witchcraft. There were candles everywhere, spells, dolls, charms, oils and the like everywhere. There were these pipes that were huge and carved out of wood sitting on the altar. Most the candle's were black with some white ones here and there. I thought it was pretty wicked. Then I moved on to the 4th floor. The 4th floor was smaller than the other floors it had 3 rooms and one bathroom. The 1st room you enter upon ascending the stairway has a huge fluffy comfortable couch and behind the couch are these maroon curtains and big windows which look out on the white road I often dream of and what seems to be an apartment complex. I kept messing with the windows and curtains, trying to figure out how to open them. They were pretty ghetto if you know what I mean.

It lead to another room with a round cherry wood coffee table and an old couch and a medium sized widow that doesn't open. There is a slant in the floor as you go into the next room which is like a laundry room. Then it leads you back to the room with the comfy couch and maroon curtains.

Last night I dreamed of the house again and everything was like the dream before and the previous dreams (well you know what I mean) And I was up in that room with the maroon curtains and a stairway was there (oh and under the stairway was the bathroom) I went up the stairs and it lead to one door and that was it. When I went into the door it was like an attic and had a bunch of Halloween decorations and child's toys in it. I remember there was a boars head mask and a big elephant table and I could go on and on about what was in that room, it was really crowded.

And in all the upper levels (3rd, 4th, 5th) all had carpet which was odd considering the lower two levels were wood, but it was really messy on the upper levels as it was dusty and old looking on the 2nd and 1st floor. And The upper levels have a lot of furniture. And the same night I discovered the 4th and 5th floor I had discovered the basement and the basement below it.

The one above the lowest basement (bare with me i know this might be getting confusing but I am explaining it the best that I can) had a washer and dryer and wooden dusty, dirty floors and dirty clothes everywhere. behind a pile of clothes which was up to my shoulders, somehow lead to the bottom basement and for once I am not quite sure how I got there I just know it had something to do with the pile of clothes. I've only been in the bottom basement once and it was huge. One big room with pillars holding it up and an old red and black fancy, dusty, carpet that covered the left corner at the end. The rest of the floor was concrete. There was a lot of dirty, fancy old fashioned furniture in it but it was only furnished on the left end. There was crap scattered about the whole basement. There you go. I hope I put everything. If I left something out I will add it here.

Anyways the house now kind of reminds me of that one house that that lady built with tons of rooms and floors even stairways that lead to nowhere, ect...Do you know what I am talking about? I'll have to look it up but if someone has a link to it it would be great, otherwise I'll look for one I've just seen it on a show and I really don't know much about it cept it has a lot of rooms and stairways ect and its haunted or what not. These places are so vivid I could go into way more detail but it would be so long and too much to read but if you want to know more detail let me know. That's it for now, what do you think? Do I think this place is real? I don't think so because its so crazy but you never know. That one chick built that endless house. But yeah it just bugs the heck out of me how real it is!!! I can remember everything in such great detail!

Same Places July 8, 2010

Same Places July 8, 2010

Whenever I dream it is mostly of these places.


WINDING ROADS - The roads are always winding confusing. One is in town surrounded by stores (which I go to a lot in my dreams) and stoplights and such, then if you go straight after the stoplights at the edge of town it will lead you down this straight road, and along side that road is nature, fields, and this one place that's a long, stretched store and looks like a long farmfresh kind of. And next to it is this other white, farm-like building that I never really go into. Continue to go down the straight road (which is big) and you'll get to these back roads. They twist and turn so much and it's usually dark by the time I get there. And it is usually hard to control the car there. And those roads are CRAZY!!!

THE HOUSE WITH STAIRWAYS - There is this house that is almost like three houses in one. Lots of doors and hidden rooms and lofts. There are three staircases but there is only two floors. The floor is hard and wooden and dusty. The whole place looks almost abandoned and dusty. Out side the only doors (three doors lead to outside) is a hill which goes on into the woodsy area. And on the side of the house is this long driveway.


WHERE THE BODIES ARE - There is this creek that I often go to in dreams with dead body's laying about here and there in the area. I always get a weird feeling when I am there. Like something isn't right. We usually make a tent and camp there for some reason. The water from the creek is usually muddy.


THE APARTMENT WE NEVER HAD - There is this apartment that I dream of often with white floors and there is this big window in the living room that stretches out about the length of the living room. And it's very fancy. Like something a rich person would live in. And it's usually surrounded by grass and its at a dead in with a driveway.


THE WHITE ROAD - There is this long white, rocky road and I usually walk down it. It's just a bunch of trees and woods near by that go on for miles. There is usually a lot of people walking down this road. It leads to a park on one end but I have never made it to the other end. I have ventured into the trees before and its just endless. It usually has something to do with Native Americans when I dream of that road.


These places I dream about almost EVERY NIGHT for the past few years! They seem SO REAL! As if I could find them and go to them in real life. Thus this has happened before. When I was a kid I had some dreams about this really nice house with white carpet and a white stairway, and I remembered all the furniture and decorations vividly. A few years later me and someone else (can't really remember who) went to this house (I had NEVER been there before) and it looked familiar from the outside but when I walked in it was EXACTLY like my dream! Carpet, stairway, furniture, decorations were just like in my dream! Believe it or not I know I am not crazy. I could direct myself around the house as if I had been there many times before. Anyways I feel that these places might be real too. It just urks me! I feel like I need to go to these places! I can't explain it! I feel like I MUST find them. ARG! I know I sound crazy but I can't help it. These places are so VIVID. I feel like they are real if that makes any sense. I don't know...it's weird..

Recent Dreams: 5-22-2010

Lately i have been having these dreams of these winding roads and houses. The winding roads are usually on the backroads and it's usually dark. I dream of two houses. In one its like 5 houses built into one with a ton of stair cases and rooms and wooden floors. It looks really old. And when I am at that house I am usually hiding from something or someone. The other house is really nice. With a huge living room and a huge window in the living room and the sun is always shining through it. And in my dream the house belongs to my mom, Jeff and myself. Anyways in the living room there is this huge wrap around couch that my mom is always laying fucked up on. The carpet is pure white too. The kitchen connects to the living room. That's about the only place we hang out there cept for a couple of times we went into the bedroom. White carpet...I don't remember much of it though.  Now about the roads. I dream of two roads. One is a back road that winds and turns and twists and is never ending and I lose control of the car a lot and it is usually night time. Sometimes it leads me to this subdivision with a bunch of houses really close together. The other road is a highway and I lose control on there too but not always. I always drive to stores and go shopping and I always have a ton of money. It was a long straight shot drive though to get to the main stores. I'm getting food for my family a lot too, fast food. I keep having nightmares that the house becomes infested with cockroaches! I hate it. At some point there is a cockroach in my dream. I've also been dreaming of hiking with Jeff through this water park thing that leads to cliffs. Let's see what else...I had this one dream a while back I don't remember much of it but it deeply disturbed me! It was a stupid vampire dream (I hate Vamps) BUT these fuckers were brutal! Ripping my friends apart, blood, gore. And they also locked me in a room with this creature with no eyes and a huge jawbone and was all slimy and peachy and fleshy. And all over the floor was human jaw bones! It chased us around the room. It was so disturbing looking. I was uneasy all day.

'Pleasure?' | July 30, 2004

I was in this room that had two beds in it. One of the two was a bunk bed. I was on the bottom bunk with this girl. She had pink makeup under her eyes and her hair was brown and straight. She didn’t look familiar. The room went dim all of a sudden. It was dark but there was an orangish glow in the room. Then this guy with medium length hair came onto the bed with this girl and me. His eyes where dark. Before I knew it he was on top of me and the room started spinning and all I could hear was breathing. I was numb and I couldn’t do much to stop it. It was strange because I was aware on what was going on but then again I wasn’t. Then it went black. Then it was light again in the room and the girl was sitting on the bed across from me and asked me if I was ok. I asked her what went on last night. And she smiled and then shrugged and said, “You don’t remember?” I wasn’t quite sure what happened. Then the guy walked in and looked at me and gave me this like “hello there. *wink wink*" look. Then he went into the next room. I started to think, “Oh shit what am I going to tell my boyfriend” I decided to leave and go somewhere. I didn’t know where but when I walked outside I was in sort of a ghetto looking area. I was walking alone the sidewalk and this car pulls up and they asked me if I needed a ride. I said I could get a ride to the next payphone or gas station. So I get in the backseat and there is this guy there. He had blonde hair and his eyes…where strange because they where black but in a way the glowed white. We pulled up to a parking lot and I reached for the door. The guy told me to wait and that I owed him for the ride. And if I didn’t pay him back I could get hurt. I wasn’t scared or anything I was just like “Ok………..” I asked him what he wanted and he leaned over and started to unzip my pants and whispered into me ear “Pleasure”. I just thought “Oh shit here we go again” everything started to spin and again all I heard was intense breathing. Then it stopped and he told me that I could go now so I stumble out of the car and go into this gas station. But no one was there. Then the car with the blond guy drove by again and the driver honked and the blonde guy leans out the window and asks me if I want to go to a party. And I was just though “oh what the hell” so we came to this house and everybody was there. People I knew. It was a soap party and they had a gift shop. It was strange. It’s kind of blurry at this point I am not sure what happened next…eventually I woke up.

Alien Dream | Date: early july 20??

I can’t quite remember how it started but I remember parts. This dream was very realistic and strange. One part I was in this big place with a bunch of people telling me to hurry and get dressed and be perfect. I got mad so I went into this one room with a huge pool in it. It was more of a big fountain that was turned off. It was elegant and pretty, yet grungy.  I felt someone was after me and I felt angry at he same time so I jumped in and stated to breathe in the water and tried to drown and I floated to the bottom and looking up through the water I saw a light then a stair case appeared right next to me under the water. And then this alien walks down it. And I was like “ god damn it let me die”. Then I was on a table in this white place and I could like see everything and even myself, and I could also see through my eyes and I was bald. And this alien was standing next to me and said something about giving me my hair back and then it put something on my head and it like whited out. Then I saw this baby crawling in a white space and every time it moved hair grew. Then it whited out again and I can’t remember what happened next but if I do I will add it in.

Bethany

I brought this girl to my dads house and her name was Bethany and she was abused by her brother. I went out back to this yard and there was a green house on one end and a fence on the other. I started to pick up and eat the candy then I noticed a woman staring at me out the green house window and she was holding a curved knife and I thought she was going to stab me. She started walking to the door then I heard a scream and it was Bethany running in her underwear from her brother who kept stabbing her and the women from the green house asked if Bethany's brother always stabbed her and she said yes. And the woman ran up and pined Bethany's brother up against he fence and stabbed him and then there was this fizzing sound and he blew up.

Blood Hair Blue Room | Date: In Mid October 20??

I was in this blue tinted place and there was this guy lovingly stroking my hair; I don’t know who it was. Anyways I had an itch so I reached up to scratch and when brought my hand back down there was blood and my hair in it. I freaked out and ran into the bathroom and looked in the mirror and my hair kept falling out and it was all bloody then blood started coming from my mouth and I ran to the guy and he was packing books and then I noticed that the blue tinted room was my dead grandmothers house. The guy told me that there was a demon in the house and we have to get the hell out. Then a bunch of shit just flashed through my mind like lightning, I saw a clown, blood, faces a bunch of faces, the night sky, parts of my dead grandmothers house, and myself. All flashed by then I woke up.

Can't Get Away! | 3-11-04

I was in this house and it was full of cameras and the doors were locked and I was trying to figure out a way to get out. My blood sister, Chelsea, was there too. We here in this one living room trying to figure out a way to get out. I found a key and when into the kitchen to try and unlock the door. I opened it then the lights went out. Then the flickered and I saw a face reflect on the window that was on the door. I turned around and it was pitch black and then the lights came back on and this guy standing in front of me was holding a knife and staring at me. So I ran and he followed. So I ran to Chelsea and told her that we had to get the hell out of here. So we ran and she took a turn in this odd house and I lost her. I went to another door and it was open! But the guy was standing right by me with a knife and he said that if I left he would stab me. Then I swung to door open slapping him in his face and knocking him down. I ran out and he was right behind me, I went to an area with a lot of people and looked for Chelsea and some friends. I kept seeing him in the crowd. Then I saw my ex and told him what was going on and that he should look out. But no one believed that there was a crazy ass dude with a knife running about! So I decided go somewhere else. I was away from the crowd and he just walked up in front of me. He was out-of-breath and he reached out for my hand and I kicked him knocking him over and started kicking and jumping on when he was on the ground. I ran to this house and there he was again. I was like "SHIT!" and he just smiled. Then I noticed a bunch of people gathered around talking amongst themselves as if the didn’t see this dude with a bloody knife standing in front of them! Then these teenagers walk out of the house and look up at the crazy dude and said "It is time for church daddy!" then I woke up.

Death's Son | 4-30-04

I was in this hotel with some friends of mine. And Death’s Son was lurking around, taking people’s lives.  Death’s son was tall and pale, with blackish eyes. His hair was shoulder length, straight and black. He wore a black suit and black pants. His lips where somewhat a pinkish color. The only way Death’s son couldn’t get to you was if you held hands with the one person. He could only kill one at a time and by holding hands he might actually kill two at the same time. (I know it is odd). One by one he killed my friends off. One friend was in an elevator and Death’s son crashed it. Another was suffocated when Death dropped a big plastic blanket over her. Another friend died when he burst into flames and ran into her burning her to death.  He killed them off until I was left. And I kept running and hiding and finally he caught up to me. He looked into my eyes and asked me how I would like to die. I said that I would rather be hung so one quick snap and I would be dead fast. And with a blink a noose was around my neck and I could feel it tighten. But the rope snapped and I fell. I hadn’t died. Then he told me that he didn’t really want to kill me but he had to. Again he asked me how I wanted to die. Then his father Death appeared. He was pale tall and bald. Death’s son backed away. Then Death looked at me and I felt an incredible pain in my chest. I felt like I was being squeezed to death. Like my insides were crushing each other. Then I ran away as fast as I could and I was like in this woodsy place and I kept seeing Deaths’ Son here and there. Then I stopped by a tree still in pain. And this panther jumped out and started clawing away. And I looked over and saw Death and his Son. Death’s Son looked at me and said “Sorry you just had to die.” Then I woke up.

Fish | 1-11-04 - & 1-12-04

I was at this house and my father was there. There was this little "blow up" plastic fountain in the driveway. It was full of fish. I decided to put them in a big tank. They all stared dieing accept for one or two.
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I had this dream for about two days.
The 3rd day three of my 4 fish died. One was alive.....weird

In A Dark Room - Date UNKNOWN

My friends and me are in this dark room just sitting around and these creatures are walking around looking at us and we are talking about the creatures and we didn’t really care about them but this dream was so realistic. The creatures looked like reptile kind of. Their legs were like grasshoppers’. There were other odd looking creatures too. The whole thing we just sat there as the creatures walked around and studied us. It was so powerful though, so deep and real.

PAIN

I only remember pieces but I was running and falling with bunch of people and I hurt my knees and this guy pinned me down and sat on my legs below the knee and started talking to me and this other girl comes over sits next to me and starts talking to me too. And we have a good conversation and I totally forget about my knees. Then I look down at my knees and they guy was sewing them up using threads from his shirt and there was blood every where. I screamed and he said that it was ok. That I will be fine and that he fixed me. But I would have to go to the hospital later to get real stitches. They stood me up and I had shooting pains down my legs. and it literally hurt so bad!! I could really feel it!! Then I go to the hospital and they put braces and a pain motor on it. and the pain motor was strapped around my ankle. and It had 3 lights one yellow one for low pain, one orange one for medium pain and a red one for extreme pain. And when I was in extreme pain the red light would light up and beep over and over. Then I remember trying to run from people and hide but they kept finding me cause my pain meeter was going off on extreme pain. And it hurt so fucking bad. IT was so hard to run I was in so much Pain!

To Die, or Not to Die? | Date: Can't Remember

I was with my youth group and my old pastor, and my Ex was there too. We were driving in a car and going on a "holy field trip" or something and there wasn't enough room so they gave me and this one girl from the youth group these scooters and we had to follow them...and we were driving in the dark and this car that looked exactly like theirs came by and I got confused and followed it-the wrong car. And then I realized that it was the wrong car and spun out of control and ended up in this junky neighborhood. And there were like creepy shadows going by and people fighting and smashing beer cans and car alarms going off. And these two boys came up to me and asked me where I came from and I told them that I was just following my pastor and youth group and I got lost and crashed. And they led me to this, what they called "police station" and told me to go in there and then they left. I asked the person at the desk if this was the police station and she said no. And I asked her if I could use a phone and she gave me a phone and I called my Mom and told her that I was lost and scared but all right then all of a sudden I was like, on top of this building and it was like a construction site and there was an Erie reddish light. And then the devil appeared and said "go ahead, jump! End it all! And I will meet you when you hit the ground, jump you know you want too" and I just felt so confused and I wanted to jump SOO bad. But I said no. I will just climb down. And so I did but I slipped when I was almost there and I was holding on to a bar. Hanging there, holding on for my life. I looked down and saw paramedics and my ex and some of my family and friends and flashing police lights. And I just screamed "somebody save me! I cannot hold on any longer!!!" and then the Medics called out to me "hold on" and so I tried so hard but I was slipping then I heard "LET GO," over and over...Finally I heard someone say "let go its all over now." And I looked down and my ex and medics where holding a sheet for me to land safely on. So I did. And I was safe and sound on the ground. Then I was back in the car with the youth group and my pastor and ex.  And we just drove for a while and talked about God and other stuff, and then I woke up.